About Aaron:

Sufjan Stevens reminds me of you
And that time when we made up constellations
When that kiss on the cheek became a kiss on the lips
And neither one of us felt alone.
But within five seconds you took it all back
And it's getting harder and harder to forget.
I could never see myself as second in your heart.
But I saw the stars tonight and Chicago played in my head.
I wanted more than anything to be the one that makes you happy.
I wanted more than anything to be your Clementine.
I could wake you up.
Or make everything a dream.

Soon keeping me at a distance will start to kill you too.
My lips are on your mind while my heart is on your shoe.

Whenever you say you're unhappy,
People want a reason why.
But I don't have one.
I have a million.

I let the past affect me
and the present get me down.
So I'm left hoping for the future
Wondering when that's going to work out.

I suppose it's my own fault
For trying to take it all alone.
But examples of the past have shown me
It's safter to keep home problems in the home.

The only thing that's keeping me here is hope.
Hope for a life alone, away from these problems.
But it's getting pretty risky
Staking everything on hope,
Something that seems as fragile as me.

I took four times the daily dosage
Just to last me through one night.
And somehow the floor seems better than the bed.

It's too far anyway.

And I would have called if
I had been left with more
Than just the battery.
But the rest of my phone is
In the hands of the one doing the battery.

So now I'm tired, but
I'm fearful of sleep
I wish the neighbors
had intervened.

So if they find this notebook
Let them find the bottle
In the shoebox in my closet
Because I'm too lazy to move it into full view
to show my daily dosage.

Stay awake, stay awake
Please stay awake
Because this might
Be our last time.

Make the best of it
Make the best of it
Please, make the best of it
Because we're running out of time.

Why did I choose
To punish myself with
Something they deserve?

So what do I do now?
It's probably dissolved
And heading for a nerve.

Just stay awake, just stay awake.
That's all you have to do.
Drown out the screaming
But keep out the dreaming
Or otherwise you'll lose.

Oh God that was another yawn.
Anything but another yawn, please.
Of all the things in this world
Who knew a yawn would be the death of me?



There is no disappointment
Like the kind I just had
When last month the pills
You've taken went bad.

I used to lie awake at night before you found me
Trying to imagine change before I got too drowsy
Soon my thoughts were drained from trying to see your face,
Trying to feel your arms around me, trying to fill that space.
Now that you’re mine I find I’m scared
That the first time I’m myself I’ll be compared
To ten million other people that are much better than me.
So I step back and tell myself, “I must be lucky.”
And the words sound strange. I’ve never used them before
I never had a reason. You’re what I was waiting for.
And as cliché as it is to bring up fate,
I just have to say, you were worth the wait.

Too rhyme-y, right? Any suggestions???

I wish my lips were smoother.
I wish my hair was softer.
I wish my skin was flawless.
And my makeup never ran.
And I wish I slept through the night,
So I didn't have dark circles.
And I wish I was taller,
So you wouldn't have to lean down so far to kiss me.
But you say these things don't matter.
That you're with me despite them.
And I don't understand it
Until I see your tousled hair.
And I notice that scar on your eyebrow.
That's when I realize
You like someone for their perfections.
You love them for their flaws.

She said, "Girls like that can ruin guys like you."*
He said, "Girls like you have done that too.
For every angel, there's a demon
And everyone of them is screamin'
Just at the thought of you by my side."

*(has nothing to do with you Daniel. I just thought it was a good line.)

Call them silly love poems,
But love is not what I feel.
So they're silly out-of-love poems,
which may not be as real,
Because I'm writing about an emotion
that I've never been consumed by,
So maybe it's just some misused notion
that we can only hope to be doomed by.

I don’t believe in love at first sight
But this has to be deep, deep like
So I’m going to take this chance
And give that first glance
Because I never want to say
“What if I hadn’t wasted that day?”